When answers are not enough

Instead of asking, "Why did it happen?"

Think of where it could lead you from here...

You have to forget me...

How can I forget you?...

You said, "Du och mig för alltid... "

How can I ever forget you?.... 

FREEDOM & LIFE... A Gemini to A Gemini

You long for freedom... you love freedom... 
You have so many ideas, dreams in your mind head and heart... 
You have goals and you strive, go all the way to reach them...

You are so free... You were so free when I first know you... So full of passion of life and care for nothing but to live life and find your dreams...
I fell in love to that spirit... to the man enfolded in that free spirit...

I did wrong... I wanted to change you into something you're not.... Purposely or not, consciously or not, my thoughts, my behavior, my words, expected and even tried to turn you into what I want...
But I was wrong... so wrong...
I don't like you as what I want you to be...
I want you, I love you as you are, the thief who steals my heart...

I love you, good or bad... I love the easiness, the fun, joy, being playful, ...your roller-coaster emotions... Being happy and contended and the next, be miserable... almost in the same breath! You laugh your heart out in happiness and excitement.... yet you cry deeply even just by watching 'Can't Buy Me Love'...

Your upfront words and thoughts... they're so alive, those words!... I don't know what your friends think about them,... You know your words scared me sometime, but amazes me always... Because when you express your mind, you go all the way, never take the easy way, as you believe in your thoughts... If you ever go for election, I will definitely vote for you!...

You're fascinating!...
I love the way you live your life. You plan a lot yet you are relax. You seek for challenges in life but you treat life as your own playground... Many times you asked me 'Relax, älskling'... it was only true.... I spent too much energy in worrying small unnecessary matters that I forgot to enjoy the whole journey.

.... keep off the thin ice and move to higher grounds....

Numb

Completely feel nothing... 

Numb...

I am so tired and sleepy but couldn't close my eyes even a second...

I am weak but I have no desire to eat

The ride is over....

Someone told me these...

ALL alone, 

Alone with their loving partner, 

Spending time with friends without the loving partner,

And spending time with loving partner and the mutual friends.


First time I have ever heard of these things
June 6, 2008 at 6:42am

Cantique de Jean Racine

Cantique de Jean Racine (Op. 11) was written by Gabriel Fauré in the year 1864, when he was only nineteen years old! Original lyric was French, and then more translations in many other languages been made ever since.
This song will mark my come back singing in the morning service choir after 6month long of absence.

I found one good example of choir singing this piece: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQaIxA65baQ&feature=related
 

 

Gladly we sang it very nicely this morning!... Am so happy to be back in the choir!

No More "Sizzle & Spice"

Sad time for all Sime Darby Centre, Dunearn Road occupants, as per yesterday, Sept 4, we will no longer have our very own and famous cafeteria "Sizzle & Spice". Though the food weren't too sizzling nor spicy, especially after you stayed there for sometime and had to eat the same food day after day... but nevertheless, they actually had nice and appropriate foods, they even had the vegetarian day!

My favorite was always the breakfast... bee-hoon goreng with luncheon meat or eggs (Uncle knows that I don't like the half-cooked egg), sometimes I changed egg with fried wanton (and again he always knows I want 2pieces of the wanton). At times I ordered the sandwich, too... always cheese and egg, and he knows that I like it with no cucumber. Last time when Pingkan was around, he knows that he has to cut the sandwich in triangle shape for her, as for me he cut it to square. The recent favorite of mine was his Thursday dessert "Beancurd Barley". I extremely love this desert, it's not too sweet but not tasteless, just perfect! Every Thursday I always buy 2packages of it (I eat a lot, yes), and if I couldn't go upstairs early, he will spare for me until I come and pick it up. Such a nice, Uncle...

Obviously many people will miss him, as he's a very kind guy. Always try to keep good relation with everyone in the building. I noticed that he actually remembers each and everyone in our office, that when one's no longer there, he will ask "Hey, where's the other guy? Where's the other girl? Why I never see him again?"... Things like that.

Anyway, again, life learns us that you don't know what you have until it's gone. I know we tried as much as we can not to eat upstairs for sometimes, because we got bored of the food and we wanted to breathe the air outside. But now when it's gone, you feel sad, feel lost and wish that it hadn't gone away, that you want to have tasted it longer.

I am not sure of what the building management will do with the left space. Maybe they will find new operator to run another cafeteria, I would be happy if they open KFC there! (just and idea :) ). But also maybe they want to use it for more offices... That means, in the future, we have to fix our own breakfast from home and have lots of stocks of instant noodles, as when it's raining at lunch time you can't possibly go anywhere (unless you want to drive), and in Singapore no delivery order operates when it's raining.

Good luck, Uncle!! Thanks for the friendship and the good food!

Älskling...

... I'm missing your love until you come back to me....

But everyday I say I'll try to make my heart be still...
'til then every way there is to cry ourselves to sleep, we will... 

jag saknar dig så mycket...

Ride On

This will be my very first post in this blog. I remember that months ago I actually wrote this to a dear friend during her hard times. I was like in a roller-coaster ride myself for sometime, not long ago...

Men are always disappointing but God is always good.

Whatever words that have been said, that's putting you down and crushed your spirit, 

Whatever that had happened..., just always try to take whatever good that you can find from them, to build yourself, to strengthen you. Always remember that you are one good person, wonderfully made with so many good qualities, in the brain, in the attitude and mostly in the heart.

Ask wisdom from God to make decision... whatever that is the best...

Keep your spirit high because you today are better than you yesterday, and certainly will be even better tomorrow and in many days to come... 

I am back on a steady ride now, may will encounter some bumpy roads along the way... but nothing to be complaint about... as this is the best ride I can ever ask....